The voices inside!

If I could write what’s going inside my mind…you’ll see a paper filled with black lines…just lines…drawn with no proper synchronization. No words…no sentences…just lines drawn one over another…all over the page. This is what the state of my mind is. Blank. Or maybe too many thoughts running at the same time. I feel exhausted. I feel numb. I feel like a one standing in the middle of the road…and every damn person crossing by is laughing at me. I feel like shouting….shouting back to the world for their voices…their laughs is making me mad. I never wanted this phase is my life again….the phase where my mind and heart fights with one another for each passing second and oh lord! I feel weak…so weak to even ask them to stop and let me live in peace. And for the first time ever in my life…I feel homesick! My dad was always right…there is no one in this world who will stand by your side…your friends, your best friend…even your love will stand apart when the time comes. You have to fight this battle alone. Don’t make favorites’, do not trust blindly, do not fight for a person with the world….live for your own too! But such a fool I was…such a fool that in this journey I forgot I have a life too…I started living for someone else…sometime for my love..sometime for my friends…and sometime for the relation undefined….and today when I look around…I see this world laughing at me…coz everyone else has made their made way….everyone else has choose their path…has make friends for benefit…some got new friends…some got partners…and I stand here…still….bewildered…confused like a moron…searching for the ones who were here with me till yesterday….but I find them nowhere around today! P.S: These voices are making me insane…is it the world laughing at me or I am laughing at myself?