I saw you last night...yeah it was you..in your usual sedate manner...smilling with the world..you seems to be happy, enjoying all colours of life...I felt happy for you seems to be satisfied with your surroundings.It was a dream though....but there's something which is disturbing me..I dont know its you or something else.Feeling chocked inside...are you still with her? Do you love her? Ahhh..I know these questions wont take anywhere. Its useless to crave for something which is not mine.Bt then I cant afford to see you with someone else. You dont talk to me now...it burns me..your avoidance.I feel like shouting and screaming...no one knows this...not even you..what phase I am going through.You dont want to come back ..isnt? I know. But I still love you. Like mad. Though your absence kills me....this pain is unbearable...but still I am addcited to it...I want to live with this pain...forever....which makes me feel you.
I dont want to sleep.It upset me.Your dreams.But what upsets me more is when I dream of you with open eyes.I dont want to cry either for I blv that my tears will take your memories away from me.I have become a victim...with no sign of improvement...for I have lost every hope of gettin better.I am getting insane..or better say have become one.Talking with you was the only thing best in my life.The only thing which made me feel alive then.Today,I am a dead soul caged in a numb body.