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Friday, January 22, 2010

Amorphous

She wasnt prepared for that moment...infact she had never thought of taking such a decision...she was not strong enough to face it alone..but that has to be done....for how long could she carry burden of a dead relation...a relation with no future, with no name, with no lyf of its own.....she decide to do that during her journey....amidst noise, crowd, fog....in a place unknown....Delhi station....a place where no one kws her and so no one could see her tears....her fingers were almost trembling while she was typing some text .....this was the fifth tym she wrote something and deleted it....choosing the right word has always been a problem with her.....her heart was crying like a new born baby.....she closed her eyes , her heart missed a beat.....
She knows deep in her heart the reason of that decision.....it wasnt the uncertainity of their future, it wasnt either that she wanted to give sme name to der nameless relation.....but reason was that she wants d one to whom she texed to be happy.....she knew that her absence wont make much difference in his life(not either does her presence made any)......but she was tired...tired of makin a place in his life....tired of the fear of losing him....he wasnt her neways.....but she was afraid....uncountable sleepless nights she has spend....unnumbered catastrophic days has faced...and today here she is...standing in the middle of nowhere...with a tear in her eye and thousands of thought runing across her mind.......but he ...sitting miles away ...without any mere idea of wat she is going thru......may be coz he has find his way...coz he has find "her"......to whom he belongs.......though she always knew that she would come back someday....and today she has.....and now he is hers......all hers'....................................


Why lyf always shut its door when shez at the doorstep????.....

2 comments:

funkyrave said...

Sometimes letting go is the toughest and bravest decision u make!

Mansi said...

hmm.yeah...provided how long u stick to that decision....:-)