Turmoil

How preposterous it is to listen all new story about oneself every other day. Yeah, I am talking about myself. From the day I left my job, people call me up and ask same old questions, as to, where am I, what am I up to......blah blah blah.....some of them are fabricating umpteen of stories in coalition with others.Some think that I have joined somewhere else,while other blvs that I have been dumped by my boyfriend (gosh I hate this ignoble word.I mean better word could be used for the same), reason for which I left my job( and that made me laugh fr the whole day). Heights were when one of the girl I know came to me and asked." You getting married?".I mean what the heck?? On what hell basis all these predictions were made??? And why on me???
Well I called my frnd(whom they considered my "boyfrnd") and told all these shity things talked about. And as expected...we laughed lyk hell. Yeah, the only mode of entertaintment in my life these days. Well they do have their reasons for prognosis.I was out of this place( my virtual and real world) for more than a month, even my frnds are astonished.2-3 days back one of my frnd called up to ensure wthr I am alive or not(frnds they are...lol)....other said my dimness has become a topic of concern amidst them. For their sake and for the ppl who cares..I am back from my hibernate mode...not totally active though...I come online for few minutes everyday, check my fb account...like few posts...make comments on some...check my mails...and go back...But one thing I surely miss are blogs..specially of wildflower, Tapas and Mayank...Perhaps January 2011 and i'll be back in my form again.....overngt chats, sms, calls.....these days even my cell phone slumbers whole day :-).
For the time being..I let others to tell a tall tale :-)

The day I realized its worthless
....................contemptment was the only option left!!!!!!!

Paradigm shift

ok..I ws out of this place fr about a month...reason being..I ws craving for sme tym off...yeah sme dayz away from these social networking sites, acquaintances , relatives..in nutshell away from the social circle.Only few close ppl kw where I was and what I ws upto.These days I really gave a thought to umpteen of things in my life...good-bad,pompous- worthless, things I have been chasing for long and vice versa. And I unfolded lot many inferences. I actually realized things to which I was giving so much of importance are nothing but sham.I am such a dolt that I give people and things, the right to hurt my soul.I mean how can a person or a thing decide to make me feel good or worse, how can anyone's presence can affect the way I feel and think in any way.Its like giving your life to a person to play with...and crip in case they break it. If you really are concerned with your life...then its only you who can take utmost care of it..and nobody else in the world.Not even the best of frnds.
Frnds, parents, beloved...they can't stand beside you always.Its you who has to stand alone at the end.I may sound didactic but this is what the fact is.The harsh reality of life is that You are alone.Find your priorities as soon as possible else you'll be playing a second fiddle in someone's life.