You promised you would stay whole night with me..you said this night is for me...then..wat happened? Why did you left? What thing changed your mind? I know I asked more than my right..bt then is that too much I asked that made u leave this way? You were with me for hours...I know..you tried to soothed the pain...but we both know its worthless...the only thing I want is You and your presence...your smell...voir voice...the way your eyes stares at me..the way you take my name..the way you make me feel beautiful by your words...but in fraction of second everything changes...I can feel the ugliness of my being..the reality that you are not mine...I have no right to make you stay. The moment you said bye my heart urged to hold you...to make you stay for a while...like I always used to..like everytym I asked for two more minutes wenever you were about to hung up the phone. You know that dont you...you knew I wanted you to stay for few more minutes...why did not you stayed then?
What pleasure do you seek by hurting me again and again? I know its not your mistake. Its no one mistake...but still it makes my heart weep. I am not complaining...this is the thing I chose for myself..I chose to stay their where you left..I decided not to move forward , to overcome the pain. You know why...coz it makes me feel alive..this pain that I feel when I miss you...when my heart cries out when you go...the restlessness I feel everytime I see you. So how can I blame you for all this? You dont need to feel guilty...you dont need to feel bad about anything I am going through..because this is what life has planned for me. Kismat me hua to zarur milenge n waise bhi kisi ne kaha hai "sab chalta hai yaar"

P.S. I waited for hours in a hope that you would come back....but.........

I beseeched my hapless destiny to schematize a clandestine tryst for a night in my dream with you,
Dreams are not my patron, said my fate,
And this night again is going to be a minion of your memories............

Your erratic stance has pulverized me
......................into pieces untold

Your wonts ..............

What do you see in those eyes? Agony, Pain, wait, Love, affection? Or hate, resentment? Is she not jealous by the way you talk with every other woman but not her? Does she not told you the level of sateity she feel inside your aura? She did....upmteen times....when you were engaged in influencing each damsel of your town, She clamored for your love, for you touch. She beseeched every now and then for she wanted you to be with her, to not leave her. You never cared to listen once what she was trying to utter, for the vestibule for you. You never was concerned to what she feels or want..the only thing which was the centre of concern was "You"...you and your false chauvinism. For all the trespasses you did, for all the contusions you gave to her heart...you never repent for them. Was she a mere medium to satisfy your carnal desires or was that really love from your side? But how can love be so painful...how can it be so deceptive?
And even today you talked to her in a way as if shez a minion of your libidos. Your deeds have made her numb. She neither hate nor love anyone...not even her parents.She dont care of her existence. Do you ever realize how wickedly you have ruined her. She cant even curse you for it.....This is what love is for her.