You promised you would stay whole night with me..you said this night is for me...then..wat happened? Why did you left? What thing changed your mind? I know I asked more than my right..bt then is that too much I asked that made u leave this way? You were with me for hours...I know..you tried to soothed the pain...but we both know its worthless...the only thing I want is You and your presence...your smell...voir voice...the way your eyes stares at me..the way you take my name..the way you make me feel beautiful by your words...but in fraction of second everything changes...I can feel the ugliness of my being..the reality that you are not mine...I have no right to make you stay. The moment you said bye my heart urged to hold you...to make you stay for a while...like I always used to..like everytym I asked for two more minutes wenever you were about to hung up the phone. You know that dont you...you knew I wanted you to stay for few more minutes...why did not you stayed then?
What pleasure do you seek by hurting me again and again? I know its not your mistake. Its no one mistake...but still it makes my heart weep. I am not complaining...this is the thing I chose for myself..I chose to stay their where you left..I decided not to move forward , to overcome the pain. You know why...coz it makes me feel alive..this pain that I feel when I miss you...when my heart cries out when you go...the restlessness I feel everytime I see you. So how can I blame you for all this? You dont need to feel guilty...you dont need to feel bad about anything I am going through..because this is what life has planned for me. Kismat me hua to zarur milenge n waise bhi kisi ne kaha hai "sab chalta hai yaar"

P.S. I waited for hours in a hope that you would come back....but.........