Its sometime so good you know..to get your things back...even for a fraction of second.This is life i believe...its not about to grudge for the things you lose or dont have..life gives immense pleasure to cherish for little moments.
Two incident happened today which really made me think life is something you cannot control..you cannot plan...it gives you the things in a most unexpected way if it has to.I was surprised when saw a blog update of a person...this person was my school mate..its been years since we had a talk....we both are a part of each others frnd list ... I was literally surprised to see a blog of her. Never ever in my lyf i could thought of her writting. Its not that she dont have that plethora of thoughts to write...she is quite an intelligent girl....but dont know why...well...after reading few posts by her the only thing I realized is...life really is unexpected. Things has changed a lot....a lot...and so has she. But the things is..I felt good…reason I don’t know..neither do I want to.
For the last 1-2 yrs I have really tersed my social circle. There was a time when my friendlist was so long that a whole community cud be made from it. But today there are very few people I like talking to ….and these people really hold a vry important place in my life. I do not feel any sort of guilt by admitting the fact that I ignore people because I could not match my frequency with them…the reason why my fb frndlist is too small. I am not a hermit but yeah enjoy my own space. Amidst these few frnds only 3 are there who really plays a signicant role in my life. I give a damn to this world if I have these three ppl wid me…and I really do. A small ignorance from their side makes me go insane. But for the last few months there was something missing in my nexus with one of them…I know he has his own life but the level of possessiveness I have for my relations really get on my nerves sometime. I really loathe this habbit of mine and have tried a lot to change it…but this is the way I am…I am demanding for my relations and my things….though I really have changed a lot and try to give a lot of space to it..but at some point of time..it hurts. Neways..after a long long tym we both talked like before. And it really really made me very happy.
I don’t care for tomorrow now…neither Am I demanding for things to remain same as today…its too much to ask for…but for today..I am happy….and that is more important I believe..to enjoy the present moment.
P.S(for those three musketeers: This does not mean that my possessiveness for you has vanished…I still am hell lot of demanding fr it )