This time is so frustrating. I spend my days doing nothing…nothing at all. I have so many things piled up…so many deadlines…but my mind is just not with me..neither is my heart. What am I doing ….I just don’t know what am I upto! I sleep whole day….awake all night. My mind is blank with overflowing thoughts…heart numb with so many feelings together. I smile, I cry, I scream, I stay quiet, I run, I stand still……..I feel calm at one point and berserk at the very next moment. I want to stay alone yet want to talk with everyone. I hate networking still search for new faces. I feel so confident and weak at the same time. This world and I…we are not going well together. I have been trying to make this world mine for quite sometime now ,but see everything going futile. I feel void and contented …beautiful yet ugly.. I hate dreams yet live in my own delusion. ..what sort of a feeling is this? What sort of a life is this? What kind of a mind and heart I own?
This really is frustrating!!!