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Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Escape!

Since the last time we talked..I have been trying to get your thoughts out of my mind…to get your memories out from my heart. It’s stupid of me to still think of you…its stupid to still have a believe that you will come back one day..someday…Its stupid to feign happiness when I am dying inside..every minute..every second. Yes, there was a phase when I thought I am over with your memories..that I am not a slave of your thoughts anymore. No wonder, I was wrong.

After you left, a lot in my life changed. It’s getting worst from worse now. Everything..almost everything is going in the wrong direction. I am tired of pretending that everything is going to be alright..coz I know nothing is going to be. I am tired of getting things back on track. I am tired of remembering you ..of having your dreams each night. They make me sad…they make me restless..they make me sick..your dreams. In the last two months I tried not to cry..I tried so hard that I felt my heart crying but no tear dropped from my eyes. And today..I cried like a baby…whole day…whole night.

I am exhausted now…I have no stamina left to fight with myself anymore. I want you to help me now. I want you to show me the escape!

3 comments:

विवेक Call me Vish !! said...

hummmmm bt thoughts always come form mind and heart ....keep keep clean ur mind and ur heart...


Jai ho Mangalmay HO

Blasphemous Aesthete said...

Hold yourself Mansi, because, the ones who left, with a closure might not return, and if they returned on begging, things would never be the same.
Dil ko mana le, par ye kisi ki kahaan sunta hai, apni hi dhun mein qhwaab naye bunta hai...

talk it out once, if that helps (But you might already have done that)

Take care,
Blasphemous Aesthete

Mansi said...

@Vivek:

thats a task impossible to achieve!

@BA:
I wish ye ek baar sun leta..things wud hv been different in that case!
thnx!