Life and Me!!!!!!

For the last few days I am feeling low...yeah ...damn low. Reason...I dunn know..or may be I do and dont want to confront it. I have never felt so alone in my entire lyf. It is like I am standing amidst crowd with no clue where to proceed. I have been trying lot many things to come out of it...but failed everytime...called frnds, read articles, watched TV(after about 8 months)...listened songs...continuously...hard rock , gazals, slow... all sorts...but none of it helped. Met one-two frnds....still the same feeling. May be I wanted to meet and talk with some specific person.....but..........
I am not talking with anyone these days......yeah...not with a single person...colleagues, frnds, parents, sibling, neighbours......no one.Its not like I dont want to talk with them...its just that I dont feel like talking and chatting with them...my mind is not here...neither is my heart. People who are close to me are not with me today...I miss them...I really do. Lyf has always been rude with me...it always take my people away from me....strange it is....till the time I maintain sme distance with people...it always try to make them enter that line...and once I let them cross that boundary...it snatches away everything I have.I fought with it...not one or two...but ample of times....and I lose...everytime....coz at the end...its me who is left with nothing but empty hands and broken heart.